hey people.

Im sorry ive been away for a long time, not really felt like talking...

things have been pretty bad over the last few months, the depression and my eating disorder have been hanging over my head like a black cloud. Ive been seeing my therapist, and things seemed to be going ok, but now Im dipping down again... I hate this! I can't eat anything without organising it in advance, or go out with my friends because they're going out for a meal, or not being able to get out of bed, because the day just seems pointless. It's the worst feeling in the world, and sometimes I don't know why I bother.

Anyway, a bit about me, as I really don't have anything on here...

Name: Emma
Age: 21
Where do you live? Manchester, England
Straight or Gay? Bisexual ;)
Single or taken? Taken. (by a guy named chris, we've been together 5 years)
Favourite TV shows: Britains Next Top Model, Desperate Housewives and Ghost Whisperer.
Eye colour: Blue
Hair: Brown atm, but I chnage it alllll the time!!
Favourite Drink: Diet coke... :) Yum.



So thats my vitals, now for the proper stats..:

Height: 5'7''
Current Weight: 126.5lbs
Highest Weight: 140lbs
Lowest Weight: 100lbs
Goal Weight: 90lbs

Me at my LW of 100lbs:


I have anorexia, and I also purge... Ive had an eating disorder for 9 going on 10 years, and it started with bulimia at the age of 12. That continued until I was 16, and then it developed into anorexia. I struggle with them both on and off, but atm i'm going through my restrictive stage. I work for the Manchester mental health services, so keeping my internal struggles secret is hard, but I manage. It's common knowledge by my friends and family that I have an ED, and my dad pretty much is disgusted by it. I did an article about my involvement in pro-ana sites, and although I am against pro-ana, it doesn't stop me thinking my anorexic thoughts, running through tips and tricks in my head and browsing the net for thinsperation. I know I flew the flag against it, and I know im also a hypocrite.

so thats me! pretty much... anyways, better go, but I'll be back soon!
 

Em xx

Im Emma, AKA Kallisti. Why Kallisti I hear you say... well...It was a name given to me when I was 15, which supposedly described my character, so here is a small history lesson for you:

καλλίστῃ, "kallistē(i)", was inscribed on the Golden Apple of Discord by Eris, meaning "for the fairest" or "to the most beautiful" in ancient Greek. The word Kallisti has become a principal symbol of Discordianism, a modern religion.


Discordianism is a modern religion centered on the idea that chaos is as important as order. It was founded circa 1958–1959 by Malaclypse the Younger with the publication of its principal text, the Principia Discordia.

If organized religion is the opium of the masses, then disorganized religion is the marijuana of the lunatic fringe.

—Kerry Thornley, The introduction to the Principia Discordia 5th Ed.

The very idea of a Discordian organization is something of a paradox. Nevertheless, some structure is indicated in Principia Discordia. The most general group, presumably including all Discordians (and potentially others), is The Discordian Society, whose definition is “The Discordian Society has no definition”.^[13] Within the society are sects of Discordianism, each under the direction of an “Episkopos” (overseer in Greek, source of English bishop and episcopal).

Discordians who do not form their own sects, whether they belong to someone else's sect or not, make up the Legion of Dynamic Discord, and may be referred to as Legionnaires. Would-be Discordians are told in the Principia Discordia:

If you want in on the Discordian Society
then declare yourself what you wish
do what you like
and tell us about it
or
if you prefer
don't.

There are no rules anywhere.
The Goddess Prevails.

—Malaclypse the Younger, Principia Discordia, Page 00032